This week I wasn’t even sure I was going to post and then I realized I did want to share some thoughts with you. I am going to the“Well of Inspiration“. I am refilling my creative gas tank and making sure that I get my thoughts sorted out. I think this is part of the process. We all reach points where we have surrendered, we have decided to live in the present moment and then we are exhausted. That’s what I have been feeling, and now I want to get this all sorted out and continue to progress. I guess it is really is one step forward and two or even more steps back. I really want to let go of the old fears and habits that have kept me stuck in the past and that is what I am digging deeper for. I want to put more poetry out there on my other blog. I just got cold feet and then wanted to hide again! Stop, that chatterbox, and quench the thirst you have for what you are drawn to do! I want to share thoughts, words and ideas. I promise that I will continue to do that and not give up on myself or any of you for that matter! I would love to hear about you brave acts of creativity. Put on some music that inspires you, read poetry, pick up a paint brush, write or cook, whatever it is that gives you a sense of wonder!
Last week, I wrote about surrender and one of the most challenging aspects of that is being in the moment, like the title of Duran Durans’ latest title track release “All You Need is Now”: really that’s all you have. We are so often regretting something from our past or fearing something that may or may not happen in our future.
The moment is precisely where we need to be , then and only then can we be free of all of all of the constraints of our “EGO”. My “EGO” is always getting in the way! I am like a frightened child in a very dark and dangerous room. I keep running away from my perceived past and continually stumbling in fear over what “might” be in my future. When “EGO” narrates your life it confines you to a narrow definition and understanding of life. As I have been surrendering I have found my “EGO” getting in the way! That’s starting to slowly change as I recognize what is going on. I can see the good in me, I can see what I am capable of and I am passionate about creating stories, poetry, and writing my heart and soul out!
Dr. Wayne Dyer‘s definition of “EGO” really hit home with me. “EGO” stands for “Edging God Out”. God being the source of all things. However, you want to label the source of all is up to you and for me it really hits home when I think about the world I want to create and what I want to contribute. Living in the moment and allowing myself to be free of all the constraints is getting easier every time I face a blank page. I am free to be me and to express myself and so are you. Love who you’ve been, who you are and who you are emerging as. Believe me when I say they are one and the same person. Being in the moment is a fantastic feeling and it is all you really need! It’s all you have.
I got cold feet after putting some of my poetry out there and all my fears came to the surface. “Our fears come to the surface to be healed”, that’s what I had to remember. I have decided to surrender it all over to the universe and I do want to learn and to improve my writing and that means taking a risk. Today I want to write to you about what I am surrendering :
(1) “I surrender all that I have believed in the morning of my life.”
(2) “I surrender all that has been holding me back.”
(3) “I surrender my limiting beliefs about myself.”
I surrender, I surrender, I surrender! I understand now that surrendering is not giving up, in fact it is the opposite. I will boldly carry on and share as I have something to share. I will plunge into the world of poetry writing and it can only get better. I will also carry through on all of my other creative endeavors. So, if you find yourself at the point of surrender then be sure to let the universe take you in its hands and deliver you to your purpose and destiny!